Thanks for the prayers – I’m deeply humbled and grateful for the outpouring of love and intercession on my behalf.
Last night at 10:30PM (PST) I sat my family down and finally came out.
On my end it went well. From the moment I started talking until I went to bed I very distinctly felt stable, peaceful, and safe. God was unmistakably present. Even as the questions began coming, some of them very hard to hear, the divine calm was never shaken. Praise God for that. I am in awe, really, at how he met me in that time.
Out of respect for my family I won’t give too many details. They made it clear that they loved me and would never stop loving me. I have nothing to fear from them. Still, we have a lot of confusion and anxiety to work through. Questions about my salvation, about labels, about my future… they will have to be borne out in grace and answered through the torturously slow process of doing life together. It’s going to be harder than I had thought, honestly.
Today, in the aftermath, I just want a hug. I want to chat with dear friends over a latte and laugh about that one time... I don’t want to be alone. But I am, and emails and text messages will have to be sufficient for now. Well, emails and text messages and the blessed Spirit of God.
I serve a truly awesome Savior. And though last night wasn’t perfect, it was certainly good; the kind of good that demands nothing more than God be glorified in that moment. I have great hope and assurance that, in time, our memories of these few days will be defined by a joyful thankfulness.
Peace, friends, and thank you.